i'm tired - physically, mentally and emotionally. i don't find life fulfilling anymore. i used to look forward to work but eversince these validation crap started, i just feel drained and i drag myself to work everyday. and i don't look forward to going home as well cos of some shit that happened at home.

in case you guys are wondering y, i had some sort of war goin on at home. i feel that noone can understand me except my elder bro. sibling rivalry is occuring between me and the youngest one in the family. and it has been going on for about half a year? no words spoken since then.

i feel that i'm no longer myself. for those who noe me, u noe that i don't express myself well. and thats y all these while i've been keeping everything to myself. but all that pented up anger is making me a person full of hatred. i can no longer see that person eye to eye without hating him. and partly, its my parents to blame. he's friggin 17 for god's sake! he dun need people to iron his clothes for him, make his drinks and even fetch his towel! i bet if he could ask my parents to bathe him, he would so that he wouldn't have to lift a finger.

and i had a confrontation with mum this morning. she noes i'm angry. but when i speak my mind, she wasn't happy. why do i even bother??

i'm just sick and tired of everything. i'm tired of crying. i'm tired of being hurt. call me an attention seeker, call me anything u want. i don't give a damn.

bliss @ 8:25:00 AM